A Fight Within

Tears sting as they flow from my eyes.

Lips quiver spasmodically from the pain.

 Heart ruptures from all the lies.

Nothing else remains..

Fears dominate my feeble mind.

Anxiety mutilates and dominates my thoughts.

Solidarity I hope, despairingly, to find.

Where’s the love I once, so desperately, sought?

Your voice still echoes in my ears.

Phantom fingers taunt my skin.

Your scent remains in my pillow,

furiously stirring emotions within.

The day you said you’ve had enough

was the day my life came to an end.

I want to apologize for who I am.

I don’t know where to begin..

Blank stares out of the window

Watching the raindrops shatter on the ground.

Hearing only the fainted whispers of

our memories all around..

I wish I had listened to your pleas,

Heed to the warning signs.

Precautions I should have taken.

Lost the love that should have been mine.

My heart no longer beats the same.

 Rhythm has changed course entirely.

No longer does it flutter.

Impossible to, when you’re not with me.

Return to me where you belong,

Within the body you once resided.

Without you I am nothing

Continuing alone has welcomed suicide.

I’ll wait ‘til morning for you to return,

The companion to help me with reason

I humbly grovel for you to come home

The voice, my conscience,….

Your Demon.

 --A. Joleigh